j0shy's life!!!

2006-12-24T10:07:00.000-08:00

Christmas is here!!! haha... waited so long for it,, finally this day came!
Cos today is Jesus's Birthday! He should get presents from us... i wonder what He wants... hmmm...

Church service is so so so GOOD! the drama is really going from glory to glory! Candle light service is BEAUuuuTiiiFULLLL!!! so memorial to me... i brought so much presents, spend like few hundred dollars, body so tired... BUT SO FULFILLING!!! So bless to give then to recieve! freely recieve, freely i wanna give!

I'm so blessed these few days, finally the blessings are coming! i'm so so blessed la! I got so much things(mainly cos my parents came back):i got a new sony lappy( greem colour),i got 2 tops and a pair of jeans from SKIN! i got a printer too and alot alot of good food... haha...

I got a close friend and something in the past happen and it kinda affected him alot recently,i have totally no clue or what so even happen and can't help at all, feel so helpless, all i can do is to pray for him.... aiyo...
i tired already... don wanna talk anymore... BB

2006-12-15T21:07:00.000-08:00

Hi ppl!

My exams are like finally over!!! First 3 are still quite ok.. the last was like, erm... you know...

The whole week was a major stretch, juggled with exams, x'mas party and dance event...
But the Lord is faithfully and just (like always)! Exams quite alright, the party went great and of course the dance by the grace of Him it was GOOD!!! Haha...

I learned a lot lately, in the bible, from other helpers, my boss and of course while chiong-ing through my lecture notes... haha...

Some stuff happen lately too, and I notice that I have to be a Big Brother in the CG instead of trying to “telling ppl to do this and do that”, and getting angry/piss at younger members... they don need a General, they need a brother to look up to and learn from… That, from now on is my daily Goal...

I learned that when I share and nag or talk to them, I really need to do it out of LOVE, not cos I feel that they are wrong/did something wrongly… that I gotta drill into my head… Sorry CG, I'll learn from mine and other's past...
But sometimes u just gotta ignore those who talk a lot and do nothing, just gotta continue to do your job well, please your leaders and of course the LORD! The devil will use them to discourage and condemn u… I found myself telling myself that the Holy Spirit won't let me discourage or condemn myself, cos He'll give me rest and refresh me... Amen...

I think for this season, I'll try to do most of the things myself, as to train myself to handle things and to do it with excellence too. I hope i can also train an "armor bearer" too, I can't do everything on my own, he or she will someday have to do what I'm doing now...

To lead ppl through the valleys, I myself gotta go through them myself first... I must lean on the Holy Spirit like never before...

My friends told me this last night when we were in Hong Kong café (till 2am), that talent alone is good but it's not powerful... You need the anointing too! Combine them together (talent + anointing = power/Glory of the Lord)...
Oh man, I need that too, I want that bad... bad...

I came upon a 2 verse lately that amaze me... [Proverbs 9:7-8]
Well, sometime u just gotta sit back and pray for them and let God do the rest...

I'm going to me a UNDERSTANDING, HUMBLE and MEEK man of God...

Catch me next time...

2006-12-08T07:59:00.000-08:00

Hi ppl,
These few days are tiring… I’ve my common test the whole of next week and I’m not very prepare, just couldn’t discipline and bring myself down to study… AHHHhhh….

Well, eliz and I are planning to have a sec school class gathering on the 18th dec, Monday at marina steam boat, I hope most of my classmate will turn up, we’ll be meeting at 4 pm at marina bay mrt station. It’s long still I see all of them and I do really miss some of them but actually a portion of them are in ngee ann too… haha

Exams ,Exams… part of growing up in Singapore I think, the amount of pressure my classmates are putting on me is great, hmmm… partly cos I don study as much as they do… oops…

I’ve to help come up with a dance item for next Thursday night “X’MASK” party… haha, guess what, I just start choreo-ing some steps with my friend, but he’s having exams too next week, guess I can’t depend on him so much. I really gotta do a GREAT job, cos about 160 ppl coming… some more it’s my first time performing outside to my zone, shaking now… well, I gotta trust the Lord and my dance mates to come out with good steps and learn it fast. Due to exams I too can’t really spend a lot of time practicing… AIYO…

I just met my boss last night, had a great time of discipleship and sharing… He said we gotta be all rounder so, I’ll be trying to lead praise this week!!! First time!!! Oh man, God’s grace! I wonder what song to sing… Boss also ask me a question that I’ve never thought off… “when do u think u’ll become a cgl? What time next year?” OH MAN, it blew me away… He said why not earliest by next june… I was like, “ARE U SURE?!”, then I recall something he said, (sometimes your leader's words are very powerful and will come to pass), so I was praying last night and asking for God’s grace and everything!!! You know what?! since God had never let me down, and will never let me down, I think I might just be one… BUT I must keep my conscience pure and humble… why do I wanna be a cgl? At what cost am I willing to lay down for it?

My answer is: I want to be one cos I feel it’s my calling and that my leaders had already confirmed it a few time, I WANT TO HELP BUILD THE KINGDOM OF GOD!,I want to bring the lost in , I want to build Life! I wanna share God’s GREATNESS and LOVE!!! I wanna do my part in the kingdom of God… and I’ll lay down EVERYTHING I have or will have… come to think of it, they’re given by God and He can easily take them away(but whatever He gives, He don take back)… even if my fresh is unwilling, I’ll make sure it’s WILLING… muahahaha… Well, let His will be done, not mine… So me being one is purely base on His sovereignty… PRAISE THE LORD!

BS is getting more and more interesting! Now learn about Lucifer… Pride and Rebellion is two of the worse sin God hates, sometime we unknowingly have them, check yourself daily… I recently encountered and fought against one of them… aiyo…

Word of the day…
“the only way up is the way down…”

A leader always started out a servant, as u starts to servant others and humble yourself, God'll honor you and then u'll rise up... There's this saying, if there's a shelf full of presents, the best ones are normally at the bottom( cos i think they're the heaviest )... You sometimes need to go down in order to go up...

2006-12-04T08:18:00.000-08:00

Hi guys,

I've put Flakey to sleep hours few ago... the last time i saw her was this morning, i didn't even pat her the last time... hai, i guess i'm not so good a owner ba... my cousin bought her to the vet just now, so i didn't get to see her... i guess i wouldn't wanna see her being injected in her tiny heart and die... good in a way, i think... WOW!!!! heart aching... she've been the house guardian of my house for 1yr and 2 mths ba... now i'll still stare blankly at her empty cage and "stone"... I'll always miss u...

I went town today planning to go "SKIN" look see look see, then jeremy suppose to teach me math but end up walking all over town to look for a polo t-shirt(didn't buy in the end) and for this SHOP that sells cheap/fake stuff but can't find it at all... kelvin tiang! i feel so cheated by YOU!!! then went to eat at HONG KONG cafe at cine, where i learn some math, some only...

Recently i've been doing my wish-list and my christmas-list... i dunno where to get the money to buy them but i'm believing for a miracle... I guess u can give without loving but U CAN'T LOVE WITHOUT GIVING... u guys out there still can try to get into the list la... try la.. hehehe...

I'm so piss and heart ache!!! someone in my house( i think is my uncle's GF) go and machince wash my SKIN t-shirt that costed me a BOMB and all the colours and the layer of golden design CAME OFF!!! OUCH!!! is good intention la, but in a big cost... well, this saying in chinese- old ones don't go, new ones don't come...haha... are u thinking what i'm thinking? (evil smile....) no la, righteous laughter!!!

i just talk to my mum just now...i final convince her that teaching ( persuading my dream) is what i wanna do, not what she or my dad wants me to do... Yes, no money can't persuade your dream, interest is second, BUT are u willing to live with the fact that u didn't even try to persuade or do/get something u really want? my friend, i don't wanna regret not doing it, cos i believe that once u got a vision from God, He'll ensure it'll come to past... Ya, so i'm so glad that she understands final, but i believe i didn't talk to her with my own ability, i felt the Holy Spirit talking through me... empowerment from on high... wow!

Word of the day...
"Divine empowerment is base upon your ACCEPTANCE of RESPONSIBILITY that God has called you to do"

BYE!

wow, someone seems to be getting alot of male attention ah... hehehe...

2006-11-28T08:34:00.000-08:00

Hi ppl... i've very good news and bad ones... but lets do those later...

Ok... lets start with happy stuff( cos i'm a happy boy)... I just pledge my FIRST arise and build... it felt COOL... so happy la, guess what, blessing are pouring in...

Pst Phil's msg were so power la... Prayer is everything... level of prayer= level of relationship... Abundances follows obediences... ppl are generally motivated by 2 thing... the hope of gain and the fear of lost... which are u?

I learned that prayer is more important than worship. Prayer is not natural for ppl, the fresh don like to pray, it's only natural (fresh and spirit rite), BUT I want to discipline myself to pray cos i WANT to draw near... Capacity is the ability to wait for God, Patience = Capacity! Make Jesus the Goal of my Prayer life...
2 things u gotta do, pray till you have a break through and praying in faith(believing it'll come to pass)

Praying man don't SIN
Sinning man don't PRAY

you know? the things that will change eternity is determines how much of God is in YOU!( think about it...)

ok, lets talk about other stuff...

Sorry guys, my family and I will be putting Flakey(bunny) to sleep, her leg infections can't be treated anymore, and it'll only bring more pain and suffering to her tiny little body, i can't bear the pain to she her in pain, rather, i couldn't bring myself to let her die... She has been a faithful and troublesome bunny but she has bought joy and laughter to me, actually i was suppose to put her to sleep just now at the vet but she was too active and i couldn't bear but to bring her home for the last time, at least to play and take pictures of her for 10 more days.

I pass my math paper finally but i really need to put in more effort on it and other subjects... i gotta do well man, sick and tired to just passing... i'm not called for that... 2 more week to common test... jia you ba!!!

Oh, i got blessed! i actually i told God i wanted to eat maggie for dinner to save money BUT...
My cousin came to bring Flakey to see the vet then we went to eat JAP food!!! wow, so full...
then went NTUC to stock up my food supply and guess what, I GOT "BEN & JERRY'S ice SCREAM"

2006-11-24T10:53:00.000-08:00

I got my IPC paper back... I PASSED, but not very very good la, but still... i could have work harder(i think...) a long day today... 3 hours break man, so i went to library alone to study for my Bio-mol quiz on monday... AIYO... i still got Engineer-math paper on monday also, totally not prepare for it, but since jeremy finish his 'A's already then... erm.... hehehe... very free hor...

new hair cut... guess what, my uncle(a hair stylist) took 30 mins! to cut a botak head today!!! Goodness! botak leh!...30 mins... i think he trying to waste time to pretend he do alot of stuff to the hair so that the guy will pay have the $40... Botak = $40... think about it....

i when steam boat just now... althought not with my cg but with my helper friends... we're getting closer leh... hehehe... (do anyhow think). I feel quite guilty, cos i was late then didn't pay for the food, then i ate quite alot... but i brought drink for them... and this fellow, play DARE then drink raw egg half way then vomit at my CRUMPLER bag... dotes... so blessed... then after that we had some "inmature boys fun" aka "toaw pop", fun but tiring...

Recenting in Bible study i learn abt eternal judgement, it came to a point that i was thinking and asking myself, " AmI ready to stand before Jesus?!" in the sense that i feel that i've not fulfill my calling and there's SO SO SO MUCH to do and i dunno if i'm doing them rite... i must really learn to lean on God's strenght and power totally from now on... And one now thing, i learn that ppl who's luke-warm and quiet christians have either never been touch by God or forget abt their first LOVE... nothing much we can do but pray for them... they gotta pray and ask God for it themselves, then a touch from God, their lifes will be totally change.

Like i said before... different church, different vision, different flow... i believe that in a relationship both parties have to have the same vision, or at least should agree or support the other's vision... I dunno how will it be like but i believe it will either be stepping stone or stumbling block... If both will to go serperate ones then it'll be tough and unfair for both parties... But if it's God's will then there'll be an answer and a way... haha, i don have to worry, cos i have the things today to worry, the future... i leave it up to DADDY...

Oh, oh ,oh... my new lappy will only come in 5 to 6 weeks time... i was thinking a macbook... white or black???

i'm still looking for ppl in school to hang out... but sometimes must give and take, the boys are kinda more accepting already... Thats cool, PTL... but my buddys outside is still the BEST!!! especially the One who's always with me... thanks Buddy!!!

The END of a thing is BETTER than its BEGINNING... year ending soon... so excited... hehehehehehe....

i need money printer already, dec got X' mas and alot of friends Bday... but i'll get my supplies soon, i think...

Tata... ciao... Bye...3.50am already, tml cg... no panda allow...

2006-11-22T07:49:00.000-08:00

WOW... so long since i ever came here to blog... spiderwebs all around here... ok(i should stop already)
I dunno where and how to start... hmmm... So far so good...

Currently in Building Fund season! I guess i've pledge alot but guess what! up to today(2 weeks from the pledging day) I already COMPLETED MORE THAN HALF of it... cos God bless me with tuition 'lobang' ma... so exciting, i believe and pray that this season i'll be super stretched and enlarged in my capacity... get ready man!!! haha... can't wait to share more testimony(especially financial ones)... My pocket may be empty but i'm NOT IN LACK!!!

I'm currently actively serving in church(choir) and CG(helper), i feel that i'm doing what God wants me to do, rather then wasting all my time wondering aimless in the streets or playing games... I've been actively hanging out and fellowshipping with my new friends(irene's helpers), can get along well, i believe it's cos of the same common goals and visions we have( become a CGL)... i pray God will use them and me to help one another and to change us to become mighter men for God!!!
Ya, CG vision, to hit 20 regular members for cg and service... not impossible, Growth starts from the heart and its already planted in our hearts (BOSS, other w242 helpers) It's growing, BIG... Actually is hitting already... hehe...

School is cool... i think, this sem the subjects are quite ok and understandable... I've funny/cool lecturers and boring/mono-tone lecturers to super impatience/naggy ones... My math is currently sinking badly, but i planning to have tuition la, oh ya, tml have Mr. Kunju Kunju Shine's test... i need a miracle... hehehe...

Yup... joining magnum soon, waiting for them to come back to s'pore i think.... currently also training my physic... getting lazy soon... Ooops

Oh ya... I believe that, u know, respect don just come in a form of calling one another "brothers or sisters", i feel that the way we bring ourselves to our leaders and elders or ppl with authority, and the way we honor them plays a even greater part, i mean u can call someone "brother this, sister that" but still disrespect them... Ppl follows ppl with leadership, not titles... the pharisees loved the titles but look at them, rite... i believe i'll flow with my church and leaders, if my leaders have no problems with it,neither do i... we stop calling one another bro and sis cos we want to be relevant to the world when we're in the market place, the fact is ppl do get intimidated by titles... ya... haha, don worry... i understand if u don understand...

ya, so i'm currently looking for more 'lobangs' cos my tuition kids went back to thailand, so jobless now... but keep ya fingers cross...

Yuppy, i graduating from my BS class with the SOT students... cool ah... i'm also desperating wanting to be baptize... Mummy, can i? Faith is not in the absence of doubts and impossibilities but knowing that u can be in peace and trust "Daddy"...

Thats all folks...

2006-08-13T08:07:00.000-07:00

Goodness!!! i went through a internet personality test then this is my results:
The Giver:

"You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.

Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist."

This is another one!!!, Here goes:

"You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.
At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior."

Here's somemore...

"You think with your heart, not your headSweet and considerate, you are a giverBut you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!"

Pls lor... But some points quite true, oh no! now thinking of changing course already...

2006-08-03T03:13:00.000-07:00

hey... long nong time no see... Ppl complaining that i haven't update for every long already...

well alot happen lately, some i may have forgotten, so just bear with me...

School first la...
14 more days to my final exams but still sacking, but gotta start NOW!!!
Just did my presentation for my final sem project, it's not good at all... My team mates can't be bother i must say... last day already still don wanna stay back and do; one say go hospital[dunno for what] , one say must go see boyfriend take schorlaship, and another BEST say can stay but half way run away... i sure did learn my lesson... had to stay up till 2am plus at my church friends place to do... called to them to tell them which part they presenting the next day then 1 hung up my call then didn't even bother to call back, one told me to call later cos she watching TV... at least 1 bother to help me do last min research... the next day say meet 7.15am , 7.45 then see them, one 7.55am then come.
Presentation went kinda bad, i was so shaky but i think my part quite ok, guess what, 1 of the girl dunno then anyhow say water has a functional group[water don have] then the whole class laughed, sabo herself... lame...

my phone was stolen... N70... Praise the LORD... thou my valley is dark, cold and scary but i'll still continue to walk close to my ABBA Father... every experience i have God won't waste it... my parents and almost everyone kinda blame me for losing the phone, HELLO... STOLEN!!! i was very hurt by what my dad said but i forgave him, my dad anyway... i prayed and guess what my dad said when he came back yesterday... "Go and get yourself a cheap phone and i'll pay"!!! Goodness! that from his mouth is a miracle! then after some tell he that i'll pay some for the phone then he allow me to get the N80[remember the 50% discount thingy] ya... after much prayer, i went to find the manager today after 1 months of waiting, he said i can go collect the phone this sat at 3pm... yahooo!!! but he also say don have the black colour i want, but the whole thing is still a miracle!!! Thank you Daddy God...

deliverance!!! Goodness!!! i think i was set free... what an experience!!! wow... now i gotta guard and protect my heart even more... ask me personally if u wanna know more abt my deliverance, basically is setting the people free from demons' control... u may think u don have it but u NEVER KNOW....

My poor Flakey[my drawf bunny] went for multiply surgery... she go infected and had asscess on her leg... infect her whole leg, saw her after the operation yesterday, felt like tearing for her, she was like so tired, in pain and i could see tears forming in her eyes... i gotta inject her 1 every other day and apply medicine on her wounds, just now when i took of the bandage i was SO SHOCK!!! so many cuts on her leg, some were still bleeding... I pray that she will stay strong and heal fast... my heart is aching now... oh, the treatment was $200... even more painful...

i still have lots to say but gotta go meet me parents for dinner... chao!!!!! i'll update asap when i have time.... BB

2006-07-16T07:47:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!
so sorry that i could't blog lately... was so BUSY with so many things, but i'll so glad some of them are FINALLY over...

Got my priorities back again!!! " Let us do all things unto God!" the verse that helped me overcome my situation was " LORD, I believe. help my unbelieve!"... wow... spoke straight into my Life!!!
THANK YOU HOLY SPIRIT!!!

my little mission project for ABB company was great!!! The whole show went on well and it's finally over... can tell that the Boss and person-in-charge very please!!! Even ask us to go work for them next time when we graduate... HAHA... Praise thte LORD for favor...

Jacks place... the mix grill set made me almost puke.... so much food la!!! had a GREAT time feasting and fellowshipping with one of my closest friend just now... we were like in the old days... screaming and shouting in the place, haha.. so paisei!!! Were laughing our heads off...Praise God for such a great friend... But deep down in my heart, i pray that her fire for God will once again ignite and burn like last time or not stronger... Keep your fingers cross ppl! Prayers do make miracles... Haha

Thats all for today... gotta go CHIONG my studys now, TML GOT PAPER! not prepared yet...

give me a few more days, i'll come back to blog... CHIO!!!

2006-07-06T10:32:00.000-07:00

I"M GOING TO EXPLODE!!! AHHHHH!!!! GOD ALMIGHTY PLEASE SHOW MERCY AND SAVE ME!!!

IT'S TOO MUCH, TOO MANY, ALOT, OVERWHELMING, ENERGY DRAINING!!!

BUT DON'T TAKE IT AWAY COS I STILL WANT TO TAKE IT COS I WANNA GROW!!! KEEP ME!!!

Restore me and heal me!!! You said in Your word that You'll bring rest to Your children... Zzzzz...

update u guy next time... to busy now... too much to do...

2006-07-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

Hi ppl!!! did u miss me! muahahaha...

Erm how to start? I did something silly over the weekends! I spend too much money on something i always wanted... Can't tell u what is it first... tell u in next week's blog...

Oh... these few days i'm desperatly studying for my re-test which is on today and tomorrow... so stress, now then notice i don't know so much things and final exam is in 4 weeks time i think... AAHHHHH!!!! oh, today's paper is ok, think can pass la... no comments...

My practical test on monday was quite ok, i did all the difficult testes and experiment then all negative results, then i stunt!!! actually my compound was the easiest one to do... sian.. haha...

No 'O' school this 2 weeks... sian... miss the dance steps... Oh, while i was stoning in library after school waiting for prayer meeting to start yesterday, i stumble upon my volley ball friend... haha... fun... he so "song" la... NO school on monday la... sob sob... i was and is very tired now!!!

The prayer meet was very good this week, prayed with joshua... joshua sim, not myself... hehe... Then had the ICs meeting, WOW... so much planning and great events and activities coming up!!! Get really... but currently lookng for the lost sheeps... blah blah... where're u...

Guess what someone asked me recently... Are u attach? Erm... well single still but not available... wanna know who... Name starts with J.... Jesus la... haha, gotcha... well, now relationship and stuff is not important to me now... too much to do for the Kingdom ,too little time to think about it... don even have time to go shopping la!!! Leak a little to u ba, actually still have this crush or should i say i funny feeling on this sister... oops... everytime meet her or something my heart will beat very far... quite sometime didn't see her already... everytime see her then always surprise me with something... Hehe... but my focus now is to be a BUILDER for Christ... sorry... hopefully in the further ba, provided she not attach... Next topic pls...

To a friend out there who's hurt and in seek of healing... Psalm 34 says "...Those who look to Him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken there faces ... The LORD hears His people when they call to Him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The LORD is close to the brokenhearted; He recues those whose spirits are crushed."
Friend, are u lost and depress because of the ppl around that had hurt last time? God is here to heal and restore if u give Him the chance and ask of Him... There're people around that still cares alot of you, give them a chance to help, they haven't give up on you yet, so u better not give up on yourself... PRESS ON!!! I'll be praying for u!!!

2006-07-01T09:44:00.000-07:00

"By then solomon just became a king, not knowing what to do, how to lead his people and lacking to confidences.... He seek after God... He gave a thousand burnt offering that caused him..." this was what i shared during offering during cell group yesterday... i felt it was good for it's the first time i share one BUT... i didn't know how to end... then my CGL had to come in and help... But thank GOD for him to teach and guide me!!!

Oh ya, i was forced to watch the soccer game that nigth, Germany VS Argentina! seriouslly , to me it's so BORING! i slept half-way... even drool... oops... HAHAHA... but soon awaken by the "GOAL!!!" of Germany... Germany fans... oh pls... then my nice CGL send us home!

And when u think it's over, i got a friend now in my room watching England VS Portugal!!! "Go POTUGAL!!!" dotes.... noisy! no peace, but i like the accompany la, so it's ok... Listening to "God will save" on my lappy, full blast...

The nokai company never keep their word, they told me to collect the new phone in a weeks time, already more then that lor! still haven call... actually i'm very anxious about it la.. hehe...

When to library to study for my retest today, ended up sleeping half the time, cos didn't understand the book... Hai... no more time to waste... can someone out there slap me awake!!! (don u dare! unless u want some of my tweeisers) Aiya, only got tml after service left to study.

AHHH!!! so tempted to buy the PSP now... but need to study!

Oh, got this member of mine that doesn't really wanna rise up... keep on tell my CGL he taking major paper end of this year, if don't wanna serve ministry i understand, but being helper also like a little unwilling(i felt)...i mean other ppl can serve GOD full heartedly and also do great in studies, many did even got better results! like the bible says God is searching the earth for people that are willing to serve Him and place Him first in his or her heart, that all things and blessing will come chasing after the person... i not saying the we cannot study or do what we like, i'm emphasizing that God is to be our first priority, then all WILL be added to us...i'll rather all these blessing, favour and good result to chase after me then having to chase after them like crazy then LOSE OUT in all the great things Gos has install for me because i was unavailable to serve... My friends don't give yourself a chance to regret next time for not placing God first then complain that why God shows favour or why is God unfair... u were given chance, don waste it! God don give second chance, the next time He's giving u a chance, it'll be of lower calling, but who wants lower calling while God has install HIGH callings rite!!!

I seriously pray for this brother, he's doing a great job helping these few days cos the other helper MIA... i'm quite concern for this helper too... i wonder how's she's doing... can't seem to contact her... (pls pray her she too if u can) God is with u always and will never forsake or leave u! Is all these years of faith and knowing God just gotta go down the drain? This will actually display how deep u love Jesus... pls don let God down, how let yourself down......

2006-06-29T21:15:00.000-07:00

Ok... i'm actually typing this blog the second time, cos my lappy hung last night... sian, almost finish typing everything la... sign...

Wow... Classes these few days are dead boring... especially ICBE... but did really learn alot these few day while i tried putting in more effort in studying... AHHHhhh... got 2 retest next week... muz jia you and study this few days already...

Oh, went to prac dance for the little mission... Fhoooo... quite fruitful and funni!!! i was told that we'll be provided with "pon pons"... so everyone including ME have to hold on to a pair! Siao la...

Then i went to meet up with this new believer to teach him so math and science... Guess what! He made me waited for him so 45mins, didn't pick up my call la.... but eventually he came, cos he went home to have dinner... but had a great time teaching and sharing with him, seeing him blur when i try to explain to him makes me wanna laugh man!!! actually wanted to give him BS but suddenly his dad call and demended him to go home, WASTED la! My first BS... nevermind, giving one more later today...

Talk about BS... my CGL ask me to give 2 ppl bs from now on, and guess what! My CGL called yesterday and tell me to be in-charge of GAMES and OFFERING in cell group from now on!!! WOW!!! so honour la!!! remember my last blog abt having this good feeling... it's COMING even faster and closer!!! God, i pray for DOUBLE the anionting to me on me,can? wanna give anionted offering msg from now on! must not let my CGL down, not let GOD down... Now is the time!!!

Remember that i'm getting the phone replacement... It's $509... i was wondering how in the world am i going to the money... cos i also wanted to invest on a PSP too... so i did tell God what i wanted and for fiancial help... Really for a shock? My sister called me last night and said she's going to give me $350 for the new phone, in addition, she's going to pass me her motorola V3 razor to replace my LC phone!!! Talk about miracles rite! then my cousin and uncle who i'm living with gave me a totally of $150 for my birthday, so the phone is more or less settle... All GLORY to GOD ALMIGHTY... so don't u dare tell me God don't provide, bless and show mercy!!!

Well... looks like these few days God is doing His working in my life that now i'm even more hungry for more of His plan for me... I know it won't be easy and relaxing but of intense stretching and long suffering... But LORD... keep me and mold me... Thank you... LOVE you...

2006-06-28T09:14:00.000-07:00

Volley ball is so so so cool, such a nice spots and game, should discover it earlier,but having it now for S&W now also not bad... hehe... Then made this new friend today call Daniel, this guy quite pro, taught me a thing or two.... Nice guy...

Thanks to Chewy! I got to go for 2 S&W class today! but very fun, learn game play... hahahaha... I think i looked like a CRAZY man running around the court today after the ball... hehe... Fhoooo, next week form team already... Watch out man!!!

Then yesterday lower back pain... now my neck pain! swing my HEAVY head around too much during S&W... sian... like everyday also pain... hai... Last night also, pray half-way my whole arm numb... whatever(eyes roll)...

Oh... i called carol today... Sorry guys to disappoint you, i'm not in... hai... she says my pick up skills not fast enough, then got to drain on my basic and partly i not enough experience in dancing... she told me to go for the next audition,meanwhile train hard... AAHHHHH!!!! i want to be inside!!!! sign...

I asked God... "If You gave my the chance, why didn't i get in..." then i recall my prayer, that if i don't get in then i'll continue to be a better helper as my CGL needs ppl to help him even more now... I decided to focus on my CG now! raise up, train myself, enlargement(capacity la, don any how think) and be more equipped... Guess what... i feel in heart God is tell me to be a ....... haha... (now only 2 ppl knows, my CGL will be next)... And it starts with the two ppl that my CGL trusted me with to give bible study(so honor!!!!) Great things are coming soon... i can just feel it.... Weeee... so excited!!!

Got a hair cut from my hair stylist uncle just now( for free!), Praise God! almost lost my atm card just now when buying some buget socks from 'john little'... Praise God again i found it...(guess where? in a batch of clothes that i was checking out earlier on).

Oh... u'll faint if u're eating this ice cream i'm enjoying now... the chcolatey CHOCOLATE FUDGE BROWNIE from ben and jerry... I scream for ice-cream... ok, i know... dotes...

Wow... so craving for pull-ups now... Am i crazy or nuts? jessel, i waiting for u la...hehe...

oh, i found 3 more chc np peeps from LSCT... Woooo...

i gotta got do my tutorial already... must be one of the TOP STUDENT!

BYEBYE!!! muack...

2006-06-27T09:13:00.000-07:00

Sorry, these few days too busy to post anything here... haha...

Lets see... Saturday... Oh ya, went to eat lunch when my sec sch friends... We did alot of catching up and i almost puke la, the 'st louis pork rip was like SO SUPER BIG! can't finish at all, gave almost half away to my friends, oh... it was at this Cil.. dunno what CAFE... good food there... then got more presents!2 very nice shirt and 1 wallet.

Went to SKIN too, but didn't see anything i like, looks like i'm saving up my voucher... BUT i went to ed hardy and SKIN websites today, then they say that if u buy over $500 hundred and above got membership!!! i WANT!!! Is there anyone out there who wants to buy anything from there... tell me! After i viewed the website my heart ITCY already la! Oops... haha...

Sunday went service, oh man, can once again feel the same presense as hall 8 again, see... We're carriers and ushers of God's presense... Muahahaha...

Then went for SUN HO's(my idol) autograph session! Then i got on stage to DANCE WITH HER!!! AHHH!!! So happy, so CLOSE to her la! hehe.. then got this special poster and collectable CD from her... Wweeeee.... haha...

Yesterday got back my results... Hai... didn't do well at all... so disappointing... sign, fail 2 paper, pass 1(not very good pass) then 1 more taking this friday... Well, i was indeed not prepare for the papers, didn't put in alot of effort,BUT the next time! HAHA... This is my stepping stone ok.... just got to stop playing games and start putting more effort studying!

Then i went pray meeting, it was SO GOOD la... it was like POWER PRAYER HOUSE! the presense in the room was like during an actually prayer meeting in church... Cool rite!
NP CHC ppl can go to (www.awesomeyeah.blogspot.com) to see our lastest prayer meeting, activties and announcement! SUPER nice blog! Self design by talented ppl,hehe...

Then i went for O school, learn alot of things,haha! so happy, then got ppl take picture of me when i dance... hehe... but very good lesson that day! Oh ya, tried to ask carol again abt project O but she had another class so she asked me to call her later at 10pm BUT again... i called from 10pm to 11pm, nobody pick up the phone... sian lor... whats going on... I WANT TO BE IN PROJECT "O"... sob sob... hai... God... is my calling to focus on my CG?

Today school quite ok lor, same as usual but i went to meet up with the dancing group to discuss and come out with a set for dances for the "little mission"... Not bad for the first meeting,but i need to rush for time, 2 more weeks or less to actual... Oh ya... my lower back super PAIN!!! yesterday dance never stretch well, aching like crazy now... argh!!!!

Just now went to alif with my ALIF supper gang(but got new member)... Great fellowship! Even better DRAMA by benedict and janice.... HAHAHAH!!!! i got the video!!! jessel got competition already... Oops, me and my BIG mouth... hehe...

Abba Father... continue to enlarge my capacity! train me in Your ways and teach me to focus on the correct things... Thank you Daddy...

stay tune next time for more JOSHY's LIFE!!! muahahahaha...

2006-06-23T10:50:00.000-07:00

Wow... awesome day... hehe... planning to meet my sec sch friends for lunch tml... mini celebation... hehe... going marina, actually i wanna go there shopping... SKIN shop... Fhooo!!!

Superman service was great but the drama little bit wierd leh, i don't understand but the music is very nice... Oh ya... Patrick got save!!! so happy for him... if he only know what Great things God has install and plan for him... that u gotta figure out yourself my brother... Fhooo! God used me again(twist)!!! pray that i'll see him this coming service.

then went to eat with jessel, albert they all, actually was to celebate jin cai's birthday,susan and i secretly went to buy the cake... but by the time the cake got there it "out of shape" already !cos the cake too soft... sian lor... i think got surprise him a little ba... then prayed for him then let him taste my "TWEESIER" muahahaha!!! but can tell he quite touch by the love offering, but to me i think quite little leh... sorry bro... next time will be more!

Oh... albert give me a little 'mission'... Hooo... hopefully can get all the ppl settle soon to prepare the dance... i must JIA YOU!!! thanks chewy for helping!

Oh ya! oh ya! the nokia company called me!!! i'm getting the N80 for HALF PRICE!!! but still $508 but thank God my sister helping me pay $300 but i still have to save up $200 for it... Money! where're U??? No la... still have to thank God for His mercy and grace!!! HEHE! but also planning to invest in a PSP... so can play when i have to wait for ppl that's always LATE... hor... talking abt ur friend out there!!! haha...

Carol!!! why! why have u not reply my email and msg. that time call u, say wanna call back also don have... I'm so so so LOST now!!! where to go??? Know what... i dun really have much experience in dancing,only started this year, but if God has gave me a chance to serve Him even better in this area then i'll love to!!! Just have to always remind myself of my motto, BE STRONG AND BE OF GOOD COURAGE!!! Erm!!! i'll do my best!!! Fhooo!!!

Jessel did leak a little of his dream of me to me... woooo... so exciting!!! can't wait for it myself, but seriously got to get EVEN READY for it... faster train now! no time!!!
But i got a little vision today... hehe... don tell u yet!!! see when will it come to pass... Fhooo...

Catch me next time!

2006-06-22T10:43:00.000-07:00

Hooooo!!! Successful PARTY!!! But all the credit i really wanna give it to GOD!!! Without Him,oh pls,u think any of this is possible!?! He gave me life, family, leaders, good weather, cell grp, great friends, brother & sisters and NP POS!!!

Today woke up then went shopping for food and goods which cost $100 plus... though that it will not be enough food fo r 30 ppl... but just nice during BBQ... Praise God... then went down school to help jessel film... watch media-corp... rising STAR coming... muahahaha... no la...

Was so tired la, then didn't control my temper very well the whole day... oops... not again... Taxi driver so naggy and rude! almost snap at him if not of susan,haha... feel so bad now lor...

Then went to do pull-ups with them... Hooo... so fun la! don tell u how many i did... zip...

Rushed home to cook the food, like fried rice, seaweed chicken, egg sandwitch...
I think we had the funniest time there lor!!! like ask all the wrong ppl come help cook food, all dunno how to cook one, oh man! BUT Praise God the food was great BUT the fellowship was even better!!!

The PARTY started a bit rocky... ppl coming late, no tongs to start cooking, food getting cold!!! But once my CG came, gathered all the ppl back then the fun started...wuhoo... Suddenly the food all so nice! everyone serving one another( great spirit of servanthood)! take photo la...

As i looked around, i told myself... these are the ppl that is molding and changing my life, and that God had them in my life for a GREAT reason! i was so touch by then... Ppl even took the effort to come down after CG and meeting just for it... wow, they move me to tears...

Games took place, then the BIGz moment... Birthday cake, guess what's on top... "Hooo!!! happy 18 joshy", joy's idea... but i like... haha... The bday song went on... "God's blessing u now, God's blessing u now...."

Wishing time came... i told myself "how am i going to make this year's special?"i decided to wish for others more then for myself... My list went like this: Spiritual wanna soar and learn more things quicker, intimate relations with my abba Father(deep not shallow). Family barrel being break and may God restore us to a even loving family in Christ... hehe. Then next is to excel in studies not only to Glorify Him but also to influence other ppl... hehe... salt mah... u know... Next is to be able to break thru,to learn how to serve my leaders even better , how to lead and help ppl under me with wisdom and anionting... Finsh.did i left out anything? long rite... Oh ya! and NP POS emerge as top 3 next year! cross your fingers...

Who can leave out the present!!! First is POS ppl... albert ask me to guess la,then i thou $$$,phone but guess what!!! IS $150 SKIN VOUCHER!!! then some more i recently just invested on an new ED HARDY shirt... oops... SKIN VOUCHER gotta wait till my pocket full again... haha
Next was from CG... a very cool skull t-shirt... good, can help make me look fierce! roar! some more from rip-curl... cool rite... i got the feel my CGL chosen it... haha!
Next was xiao han and her pathetic eye brown remover/trimmer! so pai sei la,x.han! u watch out!Ppl were laughing like mad like with janice pull the eye brow off me...EEEEeee! IRRITATING!
Then pui yee came to me with a RED PORTUGAL mini soccer ball! so nice la, ex lor, some more i told jeremy before that the ball is nice then they really went and buy... wow, gd ears!
Still got jeremy with the box, then i thou for a moment is wax... hehe... but is actually I.DOG la(the dancing dog wif disco light when there is music)... is like wow... 4 ppl got me 3 present, tissure pls, wanna cry alr...
Finally! Jenna the Great... gave me a nice box, mix with rubbish(like last yr) and a super sporty looking adidas soccer season shirt! Black and orange, love the combi, it says JOIN MY TEAM! With God on our side! who can be against us?! haha....

BUT most importantly is not the present... it is the heart, the willingness to wanting to bless me and the bond i have with them! Presents won't last eternity my friends, but this kind of friendship will... This day i'll treasure in my memorise forever!

What really really touch me was the prayer my leaders' prayer for me... they were so powerful and strong that i broke down, those words i'll engrave in my heart...

Long day... but learn alot! worth it! U notice the source of all these happiness and joy all came from God? That without Him, I'M NOTHING... And with Him i have all these thing and YOU!

2006-06-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

Quite depress these few day... no no... shouldn't have this attitude... but Praise God today Joy(like her name) bring a sense of joy to me... haha... thanks girl, for helping out my birthday planning and sharing with me... haha...

Wow! Thank God for being so so so MERCIFUL to me!!! some of u know that my N80 recently spoil then Nokia care say is beyond repair(can throw away), pls lor! pay $748 then only use 1 week only! And i thought why bad things happen to good ppl(oops,hehe...). But vincent my ex-zone member made the effort to go down to causeway point after his NS just to go to talk to the manager of Nokia... I felt that i know that i will not be able to get anything from it but i suddenly remember of where pastor kong said... the sacrifice of praise,is when u least feel like praising, u praise, it actually means the most to God... I asked God for mercy and grace, even though Nokia can just ignore me... Then vincent ask if there is a way or discount voucher for me to replace my phone,then after some thought the person say i can help u ask for 50% discount. I was so lifted up la! So amaze what God can do, even thou it isn't much like giving a free phone but the important thing is that i knew my prayer was answered and God had proven to me once again that He is indeed full of mercy and grace... wow,God... U always never fails to excite me... haha!!!

20 more mins!!! EEeeee... so excite, hope the party will be successful... no rain PLEASE!!!

2006-06-21T07:52:00.000-07:00

Oh draw me,oh draw away... Messiah today,to your presense to stay... Oh Jesus now CHANGE me and MOLD me, that i may be... Evermore true to tee... For U'll never will forsake me and never will leave me... God pls help and continue to guide me this day, for other then u i do not know who to turn to... Have mercy on me, show me a way to walk for i'm so confuse and tired...
But forever Your praise will be in my mouth, ever through the darkest valley... Holy ghost! Pls remind me through the days of my life... thank you! Now i've understand that Your 'training' is HARD and TIRING, BUT do not ever let me have a chance to doubt U for let me focus on the promises and not the problem(opportunities)... And that if there's no one else who wanna praise u, i'll definally PRAISE YOU! cos u're worthy!!!

2006-06-20T12:37:00.000-07:00

Wow... today gym very 'song' ah... haha...

Prayer meeting was very good... wow, pray with the sister beside me very stress... haha... she 1 item can pray super longggg la.... i muz quickly learn...hehe...

then after that figure out that a few of my closest friend went shopping without me...(last min shopping ah!) actually so excited to see her(xiao han) cos haven't see her for ages but she left already... Ahhh... wasted! but had a great time catching up with her on msn later... Oh ya, guys... the wrapping paper is ugly... can change... no taste la...

Oh ya! Chewy! I'm so happy for u la!!!she got into PROJECT "O"!!! that audition is like super tough la... All the best man! Thanks for using your talent to serve our almighty GOD! Jia you,jia you!!!

Sian lor... invite ppl for party also so difficult! like send msg already nobody wanna reply! some still can tell me 'if got ppl go then i go' or 'Eeee,so late and far...' pls lor,u coming to celebrate this day with me or come to fellowship... nvm la.... but i'm so touch that many make the effort to come down after their CG, Cg outing, PM... words alone can't express my thanks to u guy!!! Thank you so much!!!

Oh ya,then i psycho cai to come out supper with me... wanted to talk to someone, wanted to whine to someone... like u can see the level of commitment of friendship la,he cycle all the way to fellowship,WOW!!! thanks man!!! Then we share alot and learn from one another...
U'll be surprise how God use other ppl's testimony to change and motivate ur life!!! thanks ABBA FATHER!!!

2006-06-19T10:27:00.000-07:00

Hi all... My first blog after much pressure from joylala... muahahaha... erm,dunno what to write leh...

Oh,juz came back from malaysia,had a great time with my family but i hate the journey!

Did u heard SUN's new album? It's the Best man! Totally no regret buying it! Oh man u should buy!

Wow! My bday coming this week! Having a BBQ!hopefully everthing turn out well! Got surprise for someone! Muahahaha... If u wanna come juz give me a call( sry u slip off my mind)... 91371455...

Oh man... so much things going on and on... God!!! shows my managing skills ba... oops...

One of it is this project 'O', got dance audition,super tough la. If i get in then will be transfer to a new CG under bro kenny for 9 months, then have to leave my CG, but i feel that my CG need me now more then ever la, feel bad, feel so so so confuse!!! AHHH!!! God, pls ans my prayer...

Then got POS... Gotto learn to change my character for the better!!!
Thank God the ppl there're so so nice, love the can do attitude! The leadership rocks! Ppl like jessel and albert, OUCH! u better be careful... hehe... (they're GREAT ppl)
God,u sure did and awesome job, putting great ppl like them and my CGL(bro kel)... i just love my peers, brothers and sisters!U guys juz make me a better person in Chirst!!! Keep up the GOOD job!

CG ah, CG! break thru can! don let bro kel keep on spoon feeding u can?! Don be complacent leh,lets press on, don give up man... come to me for anything ok???